Note :

1. I haven’t been keeping my ‘resolutions’ such as reading the Bible, and posting up thankful posts.

2. This makes me feel guilty. This will then change.

3. I also haven’t been keeping up with my revision. This will change. 

4. I’m sick again.  :P

5. Wow I smell good(just bathed  :3)

6. I miss my cat.

7. I miss Kah Hoe(who is bathing)

8. Wow this month’s been rilly happening.

9. One week to prep for Control tests(and all the finals that will be following). I will make this good.

10. Because all my books are here. And what’s stopping me from priming myself?

Procrastination.

11. That, and.. Well, me.

12. Kah Hoe’s getting padding around his midsection. I’ll have to see to it that he loses it, and that I don’t get one, too. lulz

13. Serving tomorrow. Meeting Kah Hoe’s friends next weekend. 

14. Free week, complete assignments and study.

:)

Bye for now.

1. For God in our lives

2. For safety during our midnight-Satria-racing thingy

3. For strength to get through the day

4. For love, hope, and preserved honour…

:D

I always ask Kah Hoe to blog.

I guess it’s cuz I like hearing reading from him his posts. hehehe

Today we raced from Klebang back home(my apartment and his house).

Wow.

I never floored my pedal before… The roar of my car sounded soooooo good.. Mmmm…

*****

Me and Kah Hoe did… a mistake yesterday night.

Guilt gripped me.

Emotional turmoil rocked me.

I didn’t want to repeat the mistakes of the past..

and it felt like I was. 

Repeating the past mistakes, I mean.

Did we just screw up everything we had?

I didn’t want our relationship to become… Carnal.. Hedonistic… Based on pleasure.

God is the foundation of our relationship - that is how it’s supposed to be. I guess we took the focus away from a God-based relationship for a while.

We prayed together, and.. I feel at peace.

But, 

I noticed that during the time of my emotional turmoil, I didn’t question our relationship.. The way I did wit my previous relationship. There wasn’t the “should we break up?” question there as ther was wit the other relationships that I was in whenever we(me and my exes at the time when we were in relationship) quarrelled..

There was a sense of.. Security.. As if Someone was holding the ties of our relationship securely in His hands… I didn’t need to question it.

I have made my emotional self so dysfunctional through the past relationships and all… That God and God alone can straighten me out - and keep our relationship from going crooked and ugly.

God, we need you in here..  :)

*****

wow, the most busy n happening weekend ever is coming..

parents are coming(according to the clock) TOMORROW

Kah Hoe’s parents are coming(and I will be meeting them for the first time) the DAY AFTER TOMORROW

The coming week is bound to be full, too.

*****

Stole a whole bunch of songs from Kah Hoe when he was out. 

Now I have a lot of new songs to listen(n get addicted to) over n over again. hehe

Wow. 

Hope this has been a sufficiently long post.

Kah Hoe blogged twice today, n I m making up for not blogging for so long(also sporadic blogging).

*****

And,

I

L O V E

Y O U.. 

mwacks  :3

What happened to the resolve to post thankful posts everyday..

Argh.

I’m short on time(really short) so let’s have a (long) quickie.

*while munching on chocolate, mamee and listening to music at the same time - hey, I’m running on clams and a total of 2.5 hours of sleep for this span of 24 hours*

Just came back from a clamming session wit Kah Hoe and Wang Sheng.. Wow tonight will be a busy one. But it was satisfying. Satisfaction of a crave, and Kah Hoe’s brother is coming down this weekend, along wit his parents!

Wow, finally I get to meet(some) of the people I’ve heard so much about. Hopefully I don’t screw anything up.

I prayed, asking God for energy and strength to get through the day, and He gave me ample. I got through classes okay, did the interview and presentation well today, answered questions, got back my labby short report(full marks, wow)

So all in all, today was a good day. (except for the part wher I started nodding off behind the wheel when driving back)

Thank God that nothing bad happened, tho. No-one even honked at me cuz I started awake to move my car forward. 

*****

It is a truly awesome feeling to be loved, to be wanted, to be thought of, to be cared about.  :)

P.S : I do think it over, and I believe that the only one who can hold me, keep me from running, would be the one who could love me, from the bottom of his heart. I will try my best to keep my word that I made to you yesterday, my darling..

*****

Things to look forward to :

1. Weekend wit Kah Hoe

2. My parents are coming down this Sat hopefully my sister will come, too. hehe

3. Kah Hoe’s parents(and brother) are coming down this Sun

4. Leadership thingy this Fri. This sounds quite interesting.

5. Meeting Kah Hoe’s friends this 26th(again, this month is like Meet Kah Hoe’s Family And Friends Month)

6. Industrial trip this Wed!

7. Stolen moments together away from the world.  :)

*****

Thankful posts :

1. Heart-to-heart talks and discussions yesterday night

2. Enough strength and energy to get through the day

3. Was kept from accidents driving back from school

4. That God does not give us more than we can handle(today was a great day)

5. Clamming sessions

6. My new phone(and the camera that comes along wit it) haha

1. Finished my resume and cover letter. Thank God I was reminded to do it today..  =_+

2. Thankful that my phone didn’t drop off my faulty phone holder. Fixed that pesky thing, tho. hah.

3. My darling arrived safely in KL, and his interview went fine.

4. Caring friends

5. One lot shares. Thanks, grandma.

6. No interview today. lol

‘dinner’ blended into today wit a very long date wit my boyfriend.

(well of course it’d be MY boyfriend. whose else? lol)

Huey Sin : where’re you going?

Me : For dinner.

(proceeds to disappear for the rest of the EVENING, NIGHT, MORNING and most of the AFTERNOON - of the next day)

Wow we can certainly warp time. hehe

Dinner became a shopping n movie trip(shopping wasn’t my shopping - I do not enjoy shopping. it makes me sleepy and breathless) which continued into the late hours, and into Kah Hoe’s house. Lol

Hope his roommate didn’t mind too much, suddenly discovering that ther was more than just Kah Hoe in the adjacent bed. hahaha

*****

Thankful posts :

1. A good evening, night, morning and afternoon with Kah Hoe

2. Full meals today

3. That the accident I had wasn’t serious

4. That my heart has been behaving(in an acceptable range of naughtiness) today.

*****

randoms :

1. I got my first love letter!(the prank-cum-love-letter-delivery worked! mwahaha)

2. Had din dins wit some interesting people tonight

3. Had spaghetti for lunch(or rather lunner : lunch+dinner) and supper, courtesy of my housemate

4. May appears to be Meet-Kah-Hoe’s-Friends-and-Family month. The is slight trepidation, dotting the sparks of interest and excitement to finally meet the people I’ve heard so much about. I’m an introvert, it’s my nature. But I shall get over it. hehe

5. Kah Hoe is going for job interviews tomorrow and the day after. I know the possible implications of this.. He might accept one, work in KL - which is far from me. And me being me, I like my loved ones close and within touching distance.(he’s 6 minutes driving distance away from me at this moment - which is still acceptable)

I fear the heart growing cold. I fear missing him too much. I fear not seeing him for prolonged periods of time.

I let myself love him.

These will be what I have to face.

Kah Hoe : Do you trust me?

Do I? 

Yes, I do.

This weekend was a good one. 

Thursday : Left apartment for Kah Hoe’s place after class. Had… clams? I do not recall. lol

Friday : Star Wars marathon began!! Didn’t finish it, tho. Had practice for Sunday service, during which we had the pleasure of making acquaintance with a cockroach who was chillin’ on the stage pillar. After which, we went to the beach. And, Kah Hoe asked me to be his girlfriend. Okay. Finally I’m sure of what we are.  :)

Went back to the house for the night’s sleep, tho. Yay, not a night of getting bitten, itches and sandiness. Wonder why the first time we were ther wasn’t like that, tho. hehe 

Saturday : Intended to have duck rice, but was thwarted by(my) late waking hours. Went to Mydin instead, where Kah Hoe was much delighted to find his chocolate love-letters again, and we bought materials for lunch. 

Had baked beans with cheese and a delish omelette for lunch. Mushroom soup for din-dins. Star Wars marathon continues..

Sunday : Had service, came back and napped. Woke up, played tetris, got Kah Hoe addicted to it, chatted with Adonis together, played more tetris, and I came back. Almost polished off Kah Hoe’s love letters, tho. hahaha

Overall, it was a most restful weekend, and a day(night) to remember. 

*****

Thankful post :

1. A reminder to be thankful - in this morning’s sermon - to God

2. A restful weekend with the guy I like. hehe

3. Had full meals everyday. lol

Quote 1 - Kah Hoe :Am I a woman?

*a few minutes later*

Quote 2 - Kah Hoe : I’m a woman.

Dear me.. Somebody’s having identity issues.

P.S : I drifted today.  :DDD

***** 

THankful post :

1. Home-cooked meals!!!  :D

2. LOTSA quality time.  :3

3. Serving tomorrow.

4. Time out time.  :)

People mask themselves from each other. Put on an emotional mask, hiding their fears, sadness, awkwardness, peculiar habits, ugly thoughts and low self-esteem behind a great display of bravado, smiley faces, flippant gestures and words..

That was happening even before the advent of the internet age.

And now, the media’s become just another front where people can cover up - hiding themselves behind a veil of emoticons, lols, hahas, hehes, lmfaos and other variations of internet laughter.

Why hide?

If you could only look through the eyes of others, see behind their veils, you’ll find that they aren’t that different from you after all.

Many share the same emotional pain, the same fears, the same insecurities, the same guilt as you do. Opening your self up to others may strengthen them - and yourself.

No man was made to be an island.

In the end, we’re all sinners on the same level. We just err differently, but err we all do.

Don’t hide. People may give you sideways looks when they see your transparency, but in the end, if they’re honest with themselves, they’ll find out that they’re on the same level as you - a sinner and a mistake-maker - but maybe just different degrees of funkiness.

And does it really matter what others think? We’re living for God, after all.

In the end it is He who has the final say. Whose thoughts that really matter.

*****

What sombre thoughts! I wonder why I’ve come up with these.. Well it’ll make up for my not posting yesterday. lol

And for today,

1. Thank God for naptimes.  :) Imagine if He made us humans to only sleep Once a day. That’d suck

2. Thank God for the half-day school day today. And no seminar to attend.

3. Thank God for a hope and a future to look forward to.. not to mention fun and exciting events with Kah Hoe(in the near future)

4. Thank God for bucket lists.  :D

5. and thank God for my phone which has an awesome(by my standards) camera to take sunset pictures. hehehe

1. That I got enough sleep today

2. That I didn’t waste time on going to tech com class just now

3. That my mind is clearer now then it had been for a few days

4. That Numerical Method test was okay.  :)

5. The late class tomorrow.